My horoscope today told me to consider what I would do if I weren’t afraid of upsetting anyone else.
Friends, I’d ask for what I want, ridiculous and absurd and extravagant as I am.
Because I am ridiculous and absurd and extravagant— and I’m worth it, all of it.
I believe at some point in the last couple of years, I hit all kinds of new lows right along with everyone else during the pandemic and political nightmare of America and global happenings— it was (and remains) a lot.
But somewhere in the darkness, the suffering of the isolation, the gift of survival and the amazement of feeling joy at the dumbest little things, somewhere in there I found an inner magnet.
I’m alive.
It’s a miracle to be alive.
And I like to enjoy myself and all the things one can enjoy in a human body.
So operating from that basis of going about my day, liking feeling good, I loved finding this horoscope in my inbox. So I’m going to use this space to ask for and get clarity on what I’d do if I weren’t afraid of upsetting the gravy boat.
I want food, delicious and satisfying (clearly it’s lunchtime on a grocery shopping day).
I want sleep, long and uninterrupted (so someone help me source kitty Xanax and whatever magical thing happens when you’re on vacation and can sleep like a baby—I’ll buy it and sell it with impunity).
I want this house to be our palace for as long as the walls stand, and I intend to haunt it until such time.
I want flowers, all the time, everywhere— houseplants will do fine, as will the flowers from the garden coming up in the yard. I’d like these without the encumberment of gnats who apparently nest in the soil of my houseplants. Fuck them. They can stay outside.
I want to make art with words and ways of being, with paint and time. While I am living this art making, I’d like to enjoy art partaking. Give me good lines and lyrics, sounds and feelings. I want it all. Because it is all Love, and I will chase that silver lining of the rest of Life right along with all of you.
An astrological aside: The Mars of astrology shows up for me as a wild devil who will get it all done, consequences be damned. And flying through Sagittarius, that fiery sign, I feel like now is a good time to lay out the actionable items on my heart’s desire’s list and light them up. Plus it’s a new calendar year. And Mercury is done dancing backward for a while, so may the heavens let us speak our hearts and minds more clearly. We need to express what we’ve got lest we wind up in echo chambers on the way to a very boring end. Mars does not want us to be boring.
Meanwhile, I am going to endeavor to live more, joyfully and completely, and I suspect that will light the fires I am hoping to tend. Whatever condition this brand new year finds you in, I will hope eternally for your life to be inspired and peaceful, so much as those two ways of being can be balanced.
What would you do with this one precious life, if you weren’t afraid of upsetting anyone else? May the list be ever-changing, and may you do it all.